Sunday, November 18, 2012

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Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Don't Give God "Assignments!"

Lately God has been telling me something over and over and over….and yes, over again! Some people call these moments, “God Winks,” or “God Trains.” Sometimes, Christians and Non-Christians call them “signs” or “messages” from God. It means that you keep hearing the same thing, from different sources, sometimes in different ways, but essentially the same idea over and over again.

Well this one was more like a God “Caveman Club over the Head!” I envision one of those caveman cartoon pictures clubbing me over the head and dragging me off so that I’d “GET IT!” Well, I GOT IT!

It started a couple of weeks ago while I was at a Beth Moore Conference in Maine, the message continued at my Small Group study, really touched base at a seminar 2 days after that and pretty much culminated when during a recent prayer time with God He hit me over the head (not literally of course) and told me to “stop giving HIM assignments!” YUP! What was I thinking??? Giving God Assignments?! What kind of arrogance I must have. Luckily God doesn’t see it that way.

I pray every day, throughout the day I talk to God, I read my Bible, I serve, I do all of the things that I believe are the right thing to do to bring God glory and to live my life in accordance with His will. Philippians 4:6 instructs us to pray about everything and present our request to God. In 1 John 5:14-15, we learn that God does answer our prayers, not always in our timing and not always the way we want Him to but He does. BUT, was I praying that God COMPLETELY empty me of myself so that I could be filled with HIM and HIS will for me? The answer is NO.

I was giving God assignments! How many of us do that, we pray, “God if you can do this, I’ll be able to…..” “God, I don’t want to burden you with all of my needs, if you can just help me with…..” “God, I know you want me to do……., can you please make it possible for this to happen?” What are these things? Yes, it’s pretty clear, I was giving God assignments.

I do believe that God knows my heart, I don’t think He was angry with me, I know He’s answered my prayers time and time again over the years, I am so completely blessed and I give God all of the glory and honor for that. I believe, however, that God is teaching me a new lesson and clearly it’s time I learned it. If we are going to continue to grow to TRUST HIM, to HONOR HIM, to LIVE HIS WILL and grow on our path, we need to continually learn these lessons and integrate them into who we are and how we are going to become more Christ Like.

God has shown us time and time again how much He loves us, He made the ultimate sacrifice for us yet we are so, well let’s face it, we are human and forget that HE’S GOD. Beth Moore really challenged me recently when she taught us from Numbers 14 about the Israelites who doubted God after He showed them through a multitude of ways how much He loved them. It frustrated Moses and angered God. I certainly do not want to anger God! How can I doubt what HE is capable of doing or question what HE WANTS to do for me when HE CREATED IT ALL, including my life which is His and was in His plan from before I was born! It isn’t up to me, it never was, God will dole out the assignments and it is up to me to be completely open to what He has in store for me. God’s promise is certain and it is quite clear that HE is capable of far more than I can think or imagine (Ephesians 3:20)! So the assignment is for me to empty myself so that I can be filled with God’s love and plan for my life.

From now on I will be sure to not just say the words but to live my life completely open to God, and if there is a word that means more than complete, insert it here, because that is how I want to live my life utterly completely for HIM. It doesn’t mean that I will not have specific requests of God but what it does mean is that I will be praying to understand what HIS will is in my life with a particular circumstance, rather than me praying for what I think HE should make the outcome. I will not assume that I could do ANY of life without walking through it with Jesus by my side. When I say everything, I mean it!! I feel like God is taking great delight in this. It has brought me happiness and peace; it has been a new experience for me on my path to grower closer to Jesus. God has given me an assignment, it’s ongoing, it’s lovely and it brings a real sense of joy while I am living it out.

Monday, April 23, 2012

No Longer Blissfully Ignorant

Today I went to a new dermatologist; for the last 13 years I always went to the same one but she left her practice and since I moved I thought it was time to switch. I had all of the reports from my old doctor which I turned over to the new Dermatologist who came very highly recommended and by the way, she was also very nice!!!

It was strange for me though because the doctor and her assistant spent A LOT of time with me, going over every detail of the records and inspecting every inch of me, taking pictures of things they want to "watch" etc. I asked them if they were always so careful, they said, yes but with someone with my history they have to be even more meticulous. My history?? I wondered about that. She must have seen the look on my face. She told me I was very lucky to be alive today, a lot of people who had the level of melanoma I had do not have 13 years without a recurrence and many do not even survive.

I never think about it, I never thought about it to begin with, it never even occurred to me that I could die from my prognosis back then. Over the years I've talked about it from time to time but never REALLY THOUGHT ABOUT IT. I remember Mike was really scared, we had just started dating, completely in love and apparently he didn't want to lose me. He never understood my blissful ignorance to the issue at hand, despite multiple surgeries and numerous follow up doctor appointments and various other minor procedures, I never, not once, thought I had a major problem.

I think the reality of today and what happened 13 years ago hit me for the first time as a lesson to me. On our way home, I looked at my little girl and my husband and reflected on the last 13 years, the good, the very bad, the laughter and the tears and realized once again, that it is all God's plan. God GAVE ME my health back, HE GAVE ME the opportunity to be what HE wanted me to be and to truly appreciate the gift of life and the blessings that HE continues to pour out in my life all the time.

I think about a friend who recently lost a long battle with Cancer and his words, that he wasn't dying of Cancer, he "LIVED" with Cancer. He knew that God was working in him and through him and he lived everyday in complete understanding of what his purpose was, he worked to carry out God's plan in his life. His eternity was secure and he knew that every day was a gift from God and his gift back to God was to allow God to use him to help others understand that they can also find God in and through all of the difficulties in life.

None of us know what will be cause us to have our last breath here, or when it will be but we can CHOOSE to know where our next breath will be when our last breath happens here. I am so grateful to GOD for allowing me not to die 13 years ago blissfully ignorant. The reality would have been awful for all eternity. God gives us every day, EVERY SINGLE DAY to choose HIM, to CHOOSE LIFE IN HIM for eternity. I know that now, I know that I have been blessed beyond anything that I ever thought or imagined, how can I waste even one second of this gift??

Thank you God for all of my blessings, thank you for giving me understanding, for giving me knowledge, for giving me LIFE!!! I will be, quite literally, ETERNALLY grateful. My prayer is that you continue to use me, work through me to bring you glory, to make sure that people are not living blissfully ignorant of what happens next. Whether they are in good situations or bad may they realize that it can be ALL GOOD in eternity because it's all GOD!!

Psalm 23:6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever. (NIV)

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

A Day of Firsts

What a strange day it has been, it was a day of firsts for me and I’m still trying to process it all.

The day started normal enough with me trying to motivate my 5 (almost 6) year old daughter to get out of bed and get ready for school. Definitely not the first time I did that and clearly will not be the last!!

While she was getting ready I went to spend some quiet time with God, it was when my 1st “first” happened. It was the first morning in a very long time that I didn’t pray for a man named Dean Lafitt. The reason I didn’t pray for Dean this morning is because yesterday he went home to be with Jesus.

I met Dean and his wife, Vivian, many years ago at Church I was told that he had Cancer and was told he only had months to live, that was about a year before I met him. He was beating the odds and God was working in his and his wife, Vivian’s life in an amazing way. I was blessed to be able to spend more time with Vivian over the years that followed, learned more about them and have completely admired both of them for this immense love they shared, first for God and then for each other. It was a beautiful love affair, God brought these two people together and they truly did “complete” each other. It’s something I can write so much more about and maybe I will someday but right now words will not do it justice. God had a plan, Dean and Vivian trusted and loved God. HIS plan for both of them will continue to unfold in Vivian’s life.

My 2nd “first” happened later in the afternoon, Katherine was actually having some quiet time while I was doing some work when the doorbell rang. I opened the door and found myself looking down at a 7 year old boy who asked me if my daughter could come out to play. Cut to my whole life flashing before me. I think the little boy was a little scared of the look he saw on my face. It was the look of horror, fear, nervousness and even wonder because I couldn’t figure out when this happened. Everything, I can’t even explain was all wrapped up in one. I muttered the words, “you mean you want her to go outside, with you, without me?” I think I may have even said, “I don’t even know you.” He said I’m Ryan, we met on the tennis courts last week, I live right “over there (and pointed).” Ummmmmmmmmmm, what do I say…. I said I’m not sure Katherine is awake, next thing I know she is leaping up the stairs and is ready to go out the door. Huh? Wait….Wait…..not so fast. Then I see his Mom who says, “it’s ok.” Then I see the two granddaughters of my neighbor also outside playing. Lorraine, my neighbor, comes around the corner of the garage and she says it’s ok, the kids are playing right outside her door and she can see them. But was she watching I wondered?? I had to trust, I had to let her go.

I watched as Katherine showed the kids her bench box full of outdoor toys, they all proceeded to gather some up. When she had to run back inside for something she handed Ryan all of the toys she had in her hands. He stood there arms filled to the brim with toys and said, “she has me carrying all of her stuff.” I couldn’t help but think “get used to it kid….someday it will be her purse too.” ;-)

The kids all had a blast, funny thing is, Ryan ended up going off with 2 other boys who came around. Typical. So we got through that ordeal and I’m alive to talk about it.

My 3rd “first,” was interesting. It happened towards the end of this crazy day. I had to correct Katherine about something and she let me know that I “made her angry.” Ok, “well,” I said, “you made me angry.” She then went on to tell me that sometimes when I make her angry she doesn’t want to live with me!!!!

WOW!!!

This was the first time that my daughter has threatened me with moving out! Another head spinning moment. This was huge though, how to handle it….what would my Mom do??? What’s the right thing to do?? A few things came to mind in those nano-seconds. But I said, “ok, let’s go pack.” She was SHOCKED! She immediately said “no no no!!!” She didn’t mean it. It was a lesson, don’t threaten Momma. I’m pretty sure that’s how my Mom would have, and probably did, handle it.

The final “first,” came when I read the post about my nephew who was, quite literally, “just born” almost 18 years ago. I found out that he was enlisted and took an oath to go into the US NAVY next February. It was the first time that I think I accepted the fact that this “Little Man” as we used to call him, was actually a grown man. I was proud and happy for him all while I was crying because I really can’t believe it. It’s true though, it’s happening and he’s going.

In the blink of an eye, life goes so fast!

The one common denominator in all of this is that we need to appreciate every moment, every precious, God given moment we have with each other. Sometimes we have to take risks that aren’t comfortable but we have to trust in God, take those risks and move forward as God’s plan unfolds, it’s exciting and terrifying but it’s HIS plan, it’s constantly unfolding and in the end it’s beautiful, like a timeless love that will live forever.

Jeremiah 29: 11-13 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. 12 In those days when you pray, I will listen. 13 If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me

Thursday, March 8, 2012

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Friday, January 6, 2012

Ch..ch..ch..Changes


Friday, January 6, 2012

This week at my Church, Granite United Church (in case you didn’t know), we are starting a new series about EPIC CHANGE. Funny because of the circumstances of the past few years, I feel like I am the poster child for EPIC CHANGE. There are those people out there, who when you don’t see them for a while then run into them, things are pretty much the same old, same old.

I was like that for a long time. After the big change, moving from New York to Boston things didn’t change much for a while, I lived in the same house for 12 years, stayed in the same business for essentially 20+ years, had the same friends, went to the same places, same old, same old. It was all very nice, very safe, very predictable.

Well apparently that is not at all what God had planned for my life and what was I thinking that it was going to stay that way. And oh by the way, looking back isn’t going to bring it all back and really do I want to?? As you know, we recently moved, let me add, this move did not in any way lessen my dislike and dare I say, hatred, of the whole moving process. It was an awful experience which included broken appliances, a flood, a fire, complete chaos and more! We’ll leave that on the back burner for now. What I did learn through it all though, was that even through the chaos, God was ALWAYS by my side and what seemed like heartache was actually a blessing.

While there is a point there, I digressed a bit, the move, yes that was a big change, caused by a financial downturn, caused by a job loss, caused by some poor choices, caused by …. Well you get the point. The most recent change we’ve made around here is switching Katherine from a Christian School to a Public School. Now she is going through a lot of changes, she’s been there 3 days and each day tells me how this school is very different from a Christian school. She’s learning at 5, life is full of changes.

One of the big changes for me is that I don’t get the opportunity to walk her in to the school. I was discussing this with Mike last night. In fact, she can take a bus if we choose to. I choose not to, I’m not quite ready for that. Mike was reminding me that when we went to Kindergarten, I was only four at the time, our parents put a tag on us, brought us to the corner, we got on the bus , they waved good bye and essentially hoped we got to our destination. Were we really prepared for that??? After a couple of weeks, they didn’t even walk us to the corner anymore and I had to endure Ricky Jones’ antics on my own and somehow make my way to school.

I actually distinctly remember the very first day of school as the bus pulled up to what seemed like the biggest building ever, all of these other buses were there, hundreds of kids who all seemed to know where they were going and me feeling very uncertain, slightly afraid. I remember walking up to an elderly gentleman who seemed like he knew what he was doing and asking him where I should go, I was wondering if I should have known already. He very gently took a look at my tag which had the name of my teacher on it and I think a line that said “I belong to Al and Pat Norton, if lost return to Hemlock Street, Islip, NY.” I was hoping he’d read that line and send me home. Alas, he didn’t, it was the Principal, Mr. Babcock, he kindly directed me to my classroom. Which, by the way, I ended up LOVING!!!!!! I also then noticed other children who seemed lost going up to him as well. He helped every child find their way.

So here’s the point, because it got me thinking, for most of us, this is what life is all about. Each step we take is a change, hopefully in the right direction but not always, more often than not we are seriously ill prepared!!! It would be great if we all just knew what we were supposed to do or if we wore a tag when we took a misstep and someone could redirect us but we do not wear this physical tag.

We need to remember that through EVERYTHING, we do belong to someone, we belong to God and if we are lost HE will guide us to where we are supposed to go. Every change, every move, every choice we make, God already knew about. He’s been directing our lives from before we were born and it is up to us to know enough to follow HIM. We don’t get to wear a tag but we carry the Holy Spirit in our hearts wherever we go. He WILL guide us if we just know enough to ask for direction.

We may think we know where we are going and what we are doing but if it wasn’t God’s plan, we aren’t going anywhere! God will change the course and we need to be ready for the CHANGE, it may not be easy but with GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE (Mathew 19:26). He’ll guide us and in the end we will probably end up LOVING IT!!!!

I love my new home, I think Katherine will love her school, I didn’t know how this would turn out but God did! I am still uncertain and maybe even slightly afraid of what the future holds but I know who to go to for direction, I also know that when I lose my way, I do belong to JESUS and there is an awesome feeling having that on my “name tag.” Everything else, all the directions are in the Bible, we can’t wear it pinned to our jacket but we can carry it in our heart and God is always there ready to give directions to all of the people who “think” they know where they are going. Just ask.


Proverbs
3:5-6
New International Version (NIV)
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.